I'm sick of this and that

Do you really wanna know what I've been through

Gotta take you back to when I was 22

Had the worst conversations, the worst temptations

And I don't mean to be down and all

But all I really needed was the alcohol, yeah.

To hold me back to break me down

When I was looking for you, you were never around

 

It feels like there's nowhere I can turn

When I'm down, it's never a concern

I feel tired, but I don't sleep at night

I'm still a human right?

Don't leave me home tonight

 

I'm sick just numb the pain everybody hands up if you feel the same

I'm sick just numb the pain I don't really wanna feel I'm going insane

 

If I could just control my mind

I wouldn't need to run and hide

If I could show you all inside

Then you would know what hell is like

 

Tried seeing different doctors

They said, "Listen here, son you're just bombarded with all these thoughts that have you thin"

Takin' all these pills to feel a bit

Got me thinking that life is truly short

Got me thinking that this is my last resort

All I wanted was for them to hear me more

Why am I the only one surviving the storm?

 

It feels like there's nowhere I can turn

When I'm down, it's never a concern

I feel tired, but I don't sleep at night

I'm still a human right?

Don't leave me home tonight

 

I'm sick just numb the pain everybody hands up if you feel the same

I'm sick just numb the pain I don't really wanna feel I'm going insane

 

If I could just control my mind

I wouldn't need to run and hide

If I could show you all inside

Then you would know what hell is like

 

Dig myself a deeper grave, I dig myself a deeper grave

 

I'm sick just numb the pain everybody hands up if you feel the same

I'm sick just numb the pain I don't really wanna feel I'm going insane

 

If I could just control my mind

I wouldn't need to run and hide

If I could show you all inside

Then you would know what hell is like